A Not So Happy Ending

We broke up on the 15th.



Fin.

:(

Valent... Schmalentines Day

I never really liked Valentines Day aka Vday for the rest of this blog.
I mean, regardless the relationship, Vday never went right. Something always went wrong... a fight, car trouble, work, breaking up before the holiday. SOMETHING, not good, always happened.

So, I am looking at Vday, this year, with some trepidation.

Re-consider

I thought this blog would be a good idea.
I thought it would be some kind of insightful, charming, useful chunk of blogosphere.
Now I'm not so sure...

Admittedly, I don't know if I am using it to the best capacity. I mean, if I was blogging about just me... I'd have many more entries. But seeing how there is another person in play... that is just an angle I am not used to having. BUT I have been trying.

I thought this would be Cari Bradshaw with more depth. But the subject matter is not sex and the single gal. Nor is it so tug of war of emotions with a man who was constantly into but not so into maybe into her.
NO.
This is about two people, basically normal people, who are in a relationship and who navigate those daily landmines that people in relationships cross. This was meant to document or track how we succeeded (or failed). Because, I don't know, I thought we were successful, smart and possibly an example for people or... something.

I mean, I know, thus far in our relationship we are successful. A testament that not every fight is a knockdown drag out, or the end all be all of the relationship. That distance (even if it is only about an hour) can be both a blessing and a curse.

But I don't feel that this writing. This project, for me, is successful.
I mean, maybe there are 10000s of people reading this relating to this.

SO.
For now.
This blog is taking a break.
I will be reconsidering content...

Fitting Mood

New Year

We rang in the New Year together.

*girl-y giggles and smiles*

It was a wonderful surprise that resulted in a LOT of empty cider cans...

All I Want for Christmas ...

is you.


Yes, Christmas is that time of year with cozy nights full of fires, blankets and, if I have it my way... hot chocolate laced with Kahlua, yummmmm. But I can say how excited I am to spend the holiday with my other half and his family.

I worked really hard to find the perfect presents for everyone. And hopefully (*crosses fingers*) I will be off work in time to get to them without it being retarded-ly late. Because, that would suck. But that is not really in my control... it depends on how the shoppers treat our store tomorrow and what the corp offices tell us we HAVE to do..... ugh, tooo many variables.

Also, it is setting in that spending the holiday with him and his family may or may not be kind of a big deal... I mean, it's Christmas, lots of families have their own set of traditions and ways of doing things. And, well, I don't want to intrude on that (and technically I'm not, they did invite me). And I am like 100000 percent sure that I am worrying a bit too much about all of this...

OH, and, I am a serious gift-giver. I pride myself on the ability to pick out the right gifts. And this season, well... My ideas were to big. And I couldn't find things I was looking for, and did all my backup shopping yesterday. Yeah, I put it off, only because I kept looking for the unfindable items. But the back up items don't suck. IN FACT I think they may be just as good as the original ideas, but... I'm just afraid they wont be liked. And thusly, I wont be liked. anymore. :(
That last statement just proves I am worrying too much.

SO.
On those notes.
I wish everyone a happy holiday and prolly wont be back writing till after the new year :)

HAPPY HOLIDAYS